It is always at the precipice of our greatest opportunities that we seem to feel the most anxiety. At least that’s how it is for me.
The moment of ending is usually simultaneously the moment of the most opportunity. For example, graduating from high school opens the most opportunities for what to do next. There are hundreds of universities to consider, community colleges, taking a year off, what to do in that year, going right into the workforce, what job you’ll go right into, getting married, you name it. It’s the first year as an adult and offers enough opportunity to make a head explode.
Now again, jobless and moving to a new city, I have a literal world of opportunities open before me, yet something in me trembles with fear. Of course, we’ve all heard that fear is ultimately just being uncomfortable with the unknown. Which explains the fear of looking for a new job, not so much not having a job, though that in itself is a new and strangely unknown sensation, but the feeling of not knowing what will happen next. Though ultimately, it is in the not knowing that life gets interesting.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but just felt a need to express it and continue thinking about all of this, where I am now, where I’m going, and being comfortable with the not knowing.