How Alone They Are

i wanna run until my body withers away

until the ache in my soul goes away

until the pain in my somache is gone

until the muscel spasms stop

until my heart ceases to be

until i’m no longer me

they don’t tell you this, but sometimes all you can do is run. it’s not an act of shame yes it is a loss of control but it’s a loss of something greater the loss of believing that those around you will understand and accept you for who and where you are.

when you’ve done all you can do. to try and love them. to love them. to be there to be what they want to answer their “try me’s” when you say they won’t understand after staring blankly at them and their lies of ‘i understand’ followed by their own life story that has nothing to do with you and who you are and what you’re going through

that’s when you gotta run. it’s not a running away. it’s a getting to a physical space of what you know to spiritually be true. that you are alone and no one sees you. no one can help. and really, they don’t want to. don’t want you. want *you*

she’s not crazy

she’s just the only one who truly knows


how alone they are



under a summermoon/ they meet/ toe to toe/ cheek to cheek/ banana spiders are yellow/ it’s true/ but burning love is the color for two/ and his is the hair of a summer breeze/ and hers are the eyes longing to be free/ the carcasses lay all around/ but into her his love he pounds/ physical restraints are useless/ when his is the soul she runs to/ she misses/ small is the time and space before/ together eternal forevermore/ enough is the feeling she holds when held/ wild satisfaction she gives him fulfilled/ together at their base the world stretches/ time disappears when they’re intermeshing/ his are the eyes of the purest blue/ when she fell into them he smiled/ he knew

~Pour Mon Amour

thanks and credit to those who came before… Shakespeare, Poe, and Debbie; naturally.
As always, special thanks to my true love and ever faithful; SummerMoon.


Give it Time

you’re the yuki to my yuno… be very careful my love, I’m coming for you. A night trap cap you can’t escape, the only other option is a kill you. Wanna run sure that’s normal but we could have so much more fun if you stop struggling; stop questioning your feelings because you know I know you know. Deep down that we are one and belong together forever, killing you would mean killing me, but if you try to run, run without me, i’ll do it. I swear.

Give it time. You’re totally going to fall in love with me soon. *insane laughter*

Yuno Thinking

Heaven is a place on earth with Yuki, and being god is only worthwhile to bring him back. 

It wasn’t supposed to end this way. The first time. MurMur didn’t tell me. No one did. Getting rid of people is the easy part. He always wondered why I am so good at killing with ease. Because killing is easy. It’s keeping him alive that’s the hard part.
I lied to him. But it’s a white lie. To keep him close. He wants his parents back. I understand that. I want him back.